Week 5

I’m not perfect…I hope that is very obvious to anyone who’s reading this. In fact I had the total imperfect day this past week…basically I blew it by lunch…eating handful after handful of Honey Nut Cheerios and then decided to ask my husband to take me out for Mexican food since I’d already pretty much wrecked the diet. I ate the worst possible dinner I could have ordered…ate the deep fried chimichanga. So I was ready to reap my “reward” after a week like this! However, I was surprised to see that I lost another 3 lbs. I’m happy with it, but as I said, surprised. My consultant and I had a nice long chat about my mindset that day and why it was that I felt it was “bad”. She wondered why I didn’t just declare that day a “meal on my own” day. I said that if I’d declared it a “meal on my own”, I’d have gone into the restaurant and ordered the least horrible choice and tried to keep the calories down. Instead, I called it a “blown” day and ate what I wanted and as much as I wanted. Then with resolve to “reset” myself, I came home and didn’t eat anything else. It was interesting to look at my thoughts in retrospect and try to analyze why I chose one thought instead of the other. I really think that because I was craving the Mexican food, and I knew exactly what I wanted to eat, then I couldn’t justify eating it and trying to stick to the diet…although I certainly could have eaten LESS of that…I didn’t want to eat just two bites and leave the rest. So it’s a thought to consider for the future. I know that I cannot do this all the time, but once in awhile it is nice. I was sure happy to hear that I dropped a total of 11 lbs now. My consultant Skinny is just awesome…it hit me this week that although she is and always has been thin, she is actually on the same path that I am. She can only eat 1500 calories and has to be very conscientious about her food choices in order to maintain that wonderful body. She and I have different bodies, but the same struggles. She said that if we were to trade eating habits for 2 months, that I would lose and she would gain weight. That was a deep thought for me…to realize that skinny people are also having to make food choices…it’s not automatic for any of us…but I do think some people have an easier time with it than I do!
So since my last consultation, I haven’t been so great either…ended up eating a whole jar of peanut butter this week (why?? I don’t even LIKE it that much!!! But maybe I was needing something in it, because it sure tasted good) and my exercise is next to none this week. I don’t know why but I just don’t have the energy this week to do much of anything…so we’ll have to see what the scale says.